Thursday, April 30, 2009

Bon to the Qui Qui

Do people ever get on your nerves just for wanting you to do your job? Do you ever think to yourself... "why can't I just have this annoying person removed from my presence"? Do you ever want to say "I will CUT you" to some stupid fat hobbit who bothers you? Wow, you have issues... I never feel that way.

I'd like to introduce you to my good friend Bon Qui Qui. Feel free to take notes on her wise life lessons.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Embracing the Call!

We are ALL meant for something. Something bigger than ourselves.

Personally, I have felt the pull to DO something MORE with my life.. ever since college. But unfortunately the realities of bills, rent, loans etc. so often take priority. I have been doing a lot of searching lately, a LOT of thinking and not enough praying about it. Maybe I am scared that God may show me the plan, but I will be too scared to accept it. Maybe I'm not ready to embrace the mission. But ready or not, He shows me time and time again..tugs at my heart.. and ignites my soul. He is leading me.. sign by sign, person by person on a new path - a new adventure.

What is your passion???? This is a simple yet not so easy question to answer sometimes. I have a LOT of interests, a LOT of "passions"..But what is the one I am designed to claim as MINE?... This is SUCH an important question for each of us to answer. If you don't know it, think about it. If you find yourself in a job that you have worked hard for, but aren't fulfilled by - that is not your passion.

Our hearts were designed so specifically, so perfectly and so uniquely. We are NOT using this AMAZING heart - the heart of a WOMAN... to its full capacity if we do not recognize and EMBRACE our Passion. discovering our passion will lead us to our call. This will be the gateway to true success and true fulfillment.

As I embark on my journey of soul searching - I challenge you each to do the same (if you have not already).. unlock the true heart you were given.. and reveal the call you were MADE to embrace.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Before and After

Ok people, so this is Liza's BEFORE pic (note her ends are random, dead, and blonde):

This is the AFTER shot (note hair is still very long while her ends look much healthier): This is PETRA, from back in October...

Liza Lize, please share your experience with the group, and tell us what YOU think about your hairstyle by Petra. Oh and while Liza got her hair did, I was in the corner bar with another bestie drinking half-price cosmos!!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Petra Fandom

After work t0night Liza is going to the bestest hair stylist in NYC!!!
I'm going with her so that I can watch, and bc I'm obsessed with Petra. The Little Hair Shoppe is the most wonderfullest place in the city.

This is why I love Petra: she is sort of like a Life Coach for your look. She will be honest and tell you if something you want won't look right on you; she will make suggestions about things you never thought possible; she will help build your confidence so you are ready for what is to come.
Petra will snip snip snip away, sometimes putting the scissors down because she has some insight to share about life. You pay attention to this, knowing it is important.

Your hair looks better than you expected, more amazing than you knew you were allowed to hope for. You strut out of there with your head held high. Looking in every mirror you pass. Owning your new do. You see all the heads turning in your direction and think to yourself, "self, you look beautious".

Anyways, I'm going with Liza to just watch and admire. Petra knows how to OWN it like nobody's business. And we'll be sure to post the before and after shots!

Significant Milestone

Today I am owning it. I am owning the fact that I'm alive. Today it has been 6 months since the most traumatic experience of my life. For those of you who aren't aware, 6 months ago my apartment was broken into at dawn while I was asleep. I'll spare you the details. When it was first happening, I thought I was going to die for sure. I am only 5'1" barely over 100 pounds! What could I do? The answer is clearly prayer. I thought about all that I had left to do with my life, not what I had already done. I thought about the children I wanted to have and the difference I wanted to make in the world. So I called on my Guardian Angel (and actually I truly felt my best friend's angel there with me) for aid. I prayed the Memorare and the prayer to St. Michael. I repeated those prayers over and over throughout the attack. I believe Mary protected my purity herself. I believe I wouldn't be alive if I had not turned to God in my hour(s) of need.

I managed to come out relatively unharmed. I immediately realized what a gift my life was, how much must be planned for me, and how grateful I was to be alive. I realized this while consoling my sobbing mother and while cradling my broken cousin. Everyone I loved came running to be by my side, and they have not left my side since. I am alive for a reason, or more than one :). I am owning my life. I am owning my God. I am owning my future!

I do not lay in bed now and think "Why me!?". I merely thank God for waking me up and making me understand how truly powerful He is. I thank Him for having this happen to me and not to my dear sisters. I hope that no other woman I encounter will go through this, but if they do, that they will turn to me if they need me.

Maya Angelou in her book "Letter to My Daughter" wrote a chapter on Violence.

"We must call the ravening act of rape, the bloody, heart-stopping, breath-snatching, bone-crushing act of violence, which it is. The threat makes some female and male victims unable to open their front doors, unable to venture into streets in which they grew up, unable to trust other human beings and, even themselves. Let us call it a violent unredeemable sexual act."

Somehow or another, my attacker was not able to fully rape me, and I count myself as one in a million with that outcome. Why do I post this? I want you to celebrate with me for my life. It may sound selfish, but I think that you'll understand. I want to also remind you to be safe, to be smart, and to be secure in your house. I am celebrating this milestone by moving into my new condo on Sunday, ready to move on and live again.


Thursday, April 23, 2009

getting thru the work week

Remeber being a kid, and playing "college" or "work" or "house"? It was so much fun! Liza and I would set up for hours on end, assign characters, dress up in lady clothes and our mom's old heels, oh and big earrings of course.

College turned out to be alot more work than I imagined, but also loads more fun. It turns out that Aunt Betty's version college was a bit more refined than my real experience.

House, well I'm not quite at the stage of playing house where there is a mom, dad, and kids. But I do really enjoy my home and my roomies.

Work. Playing work was way more glamourous and prestigious than reality. I do still wear the big earrings with pride, and Liza and I still try to dress up in lady clothes. The kids in this comic seem to have it right...
The chicks say it best as always.
Who wants to have a virtual beer with me? I'll take a Magic Hat, and I'm toasting to Thursday and to all you ladies who own it, work it, run it, dance it, live it, love it, breathe it, say it, type it, wear it, and share it.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Miss California OWNS IT

Did you all see this??? Way to OWN IT Miss Cali!!!,23739,25363686-5012980,00.html

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Fashion with a strong statement.

Hey ladies. This designer is swimming upstream, and I want to help promote her.
This is a great alternative to the barely there bikini this summer. So classy, so sassy.

Cheers to ALMOST summertime!! woo hoo! I can smell the suntan lotion.

the consummate owna

if you do ONE tiny thing today. please watch this (WITH sound)

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

what is a starbuck?

I was sitting at Starbuck's with one of my besties last night. I was drinking hot tea while a cold draft rudely blew upon us. It really did not let up at all. I complained to the friendly/flirty barista (do you call a male barista a baristo??), but allegedly no one in the store could turn down the cold front. Rood.

Ok this is all besides the point, but it feels good to get that off my chest.
So, back to basics- I was drinking my tea and my bestie discovered a quote so good on my cup that she took it home with her! You know, those "The Way I see It" quotes, or whatever. She shared it with her man. As I *luckily* do not have a man I want to share it with you.

"There is a subtle difference between a mission and a promise. A mission is something you strive to accomplish — a promise is something you are compelled to keep. One is individual, the other is shared. When a mission and a promise are one and the same . . . that’s when mountains are moved and races are won."
I'm really motivated this year (compared to my usual state of happy laziness) to actually accomplish things. Things like winning races and maybe moving a mountain or 2. My bestie helped me accomplish one of my goals last night. My lesson: I can't go it alone. I just can't. When I try to accomplish something difficult alone I end up procrastinating and giving up. But with the support of my friends I am lifted up and I am able. Able to keep going, keep moving mountains, keep promises to myself, succeed, be proud, and own it.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Are you prepared for the Easter Triduum?

You can answer that question about your spiritual life. I can't believe we are already thru lent!

Really I just want to share one of my fave Easter candy commercials with you...I morally oppose the marriage of chocolate and peanut butter, but the commercial gets me everytime:

Ok, and while I am sharing funny commercials with you, this is not holiday or holy-day related, but it is HILARIO:

Say a Prayer for Therese

Our girl Therese..Missionary extraordinaire.. Needs our prayers.

She had to get her appendix removed yesterday... IN HONDURAS.

.. enough said.

Pray for our selfless Therese for a speedy recovery.

Friday, April 3, 2009

In it to Win it!

Happy Friday everyone!!!

I want to share a little own-it story/realization with you.

Well frankly speaking, the past month.. has sucked. The past few weeks (starting with a LOT of job uncertainty) have brought out many many insecurities, and reasons for self doubt.

My relationship with my boyfriend began to suffer, and my relationship with myself.. has been horrible. Luckily I live with 2 amazing women who listen and encourage me when I need it, so I have been able to keep on pushing through it.

I began to let my insecurities take over... my worst thoughts about myself, about what others think, about what I am capable of etc. My looks, my weight, my career, my future.. all brought into question. All became one loud paranoid thought in my mind.

We all have our issues. We all have our own doubts. Who we are, who we were, who we are MEANT to be. Then there is what ppl EXPECT you to BE or NOT be. A million words, a million directions, a million thoughts.. all clanging in my one little mind.

Yes I have a therapist (which I highly recommend doing - no matter WHO you are). Yes I have amazing friends. I have people in my life who care, people who I can count on. I have a family, that no matter how chaotic, is full of love and a unique closeness that not many people experience. I even have a truly amazing guy in my life who has shown me again and again his unconditional and unparalleled love for little ole' me.

Their words, their love.. was for the most part lost on me.

It doesn't matter what we look like, if we don't really see ourselves. It doesn't matter if we have ppl encouraging us, if we don't really hear them. It doesn't matter how hard we try, if we are waiting to fail.

I have been talking about a lot of these insecurities lately, getting them out has done 2 things.
  1. At first it made me more aware/sensitive of them.. but then ...
  2. It made me realize how FALSE my insecurities are. How they are lies, I have been holding onto. For comfort? for Fear? out of weakness? who knows.
My sister Maria, as you all know.. ran a 4 mile race a couple weeks ago. She isn't the work out "type"...but she decided she was gonna do it..and BAM she did! My Brother Peter (who lost a leg to cancer a few years ago) ran a 5 mile race last summer. My other brother just completed a full year of INTENSIVE and life changing rehab!! These are just a handful of examples that have made an impact on me lately. I decided on Monday to sign up for the next 4 mile race..which is on April 19th. I am NOT a runner, but am trying to convert. This week, for my first time ever I made it to 2.5 miles! and somewhere between the 2nd mile and 2.5 something happened. Something empowering. I did it. I wanted to quit, to give up and start walking like I usually do when I am tired of working out and cant do more. I quit. Just like, when things are hard at work.. or in a relationship..I withdraw.. I quit in little ways. Accept defeat. Accept the lies my mind tells me.. "you cant do it", "you're not worth it", "You are JUST not good enough".. "you're weak".. or my fave justification "what's the point anyway"..ETC ETC ETC.

But not this time. I went on.. I kept running. I thought.. "F you all you naysayers! Screw you Little Negative Nancy living in the back of my mind"..and did it.

ReaLIZAtion: I am stronger than I think. I can DO anything I set my mind to.

Today I have been thinking about an aggressive work out plan to jumpstart this body of mine, and I am getting my roomies to do it too! Today I am telling my boyfriend that I love him, and he is a GOOD MAN, and He is a LUCKY man.. bc I AM a fabulous woman. Today I am aiming for 2.75 miles on the treadmill. Today I am brainstorming on how I can make more money for my company.

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a is all we have..and today I CHOOSE to own it.

if only...

Say it with me: FRIDAY. ahhhhh.
I am at work. It is rainy and icky outside. Meat free day.

In my vivid imagination I decided I would rather be in one of the following scenarios today...
At home, in my bed, dreaming.
At the movies with my friends wearing 3D glasses and apparently sipping on Coke.
In paradise, lounging in that empty hammock on the beach somewhere in my bikini and I have a perfect body (it is my fantasy). It is warm. It is quiet. No work to do. No responsibilities. Imagine.
Even this one- much closer to my reality. No these are not my feet and not my office, but I am jealous of her (not the toe ring). I want to plop my feet up on the desk and happen to have a perfect pedicure and shaved legs.
But alas, I am here at work, eating a peanut butter sandwich at my desk. I will be here til 5 o'clock, but then all bets are off.
I am grateful to have a job, and to have wonderful friends to chill with me tonight. I am giddy not to sit at this desk again until Monday. I have orientation for a new Saturday job tomorrow morning, and I am ecstatic about that ($$, more clinical than where I'm at now, and no commute bc it is literally downstairs from my apt). Speaking of my apt I have 2 gorgeous and loving roomies, another bff down the block, and dvr. So serio- what more could a girl wish for?

It is MyDay, and I will ROCK it in my usual reality. In the words of The Cure, "Its Friday I'm in love".

Thursday, April 2, 2009

OWNING my pregnancy..

My beautiful ladies! It has been so fun to read all the variety of posts here-thanks for contributing.
I haven't had much to share, but I did have some major reflection time the other night and wanted to voice some of those thoughts here...
As most of you know, I have come to my last few weeks of pregnancy....along with that has come some pretty intense back pain. It keeps me up throughout the night, and has made me feel pretty much like an invalid. I have had my moments believe me when I have asked myself, what in the world am I doing large and pregnant at 24??? Then God kindly reminds me it is because I am bringing a life into the world that he has had planned from all eternity, and that Gabe and I's openness to life at the peak of ours will only allow this child to live and hopefully fulfill that great plan that God in his goodness has for it. I have had to ask myself-how do I "OWN-IT" in my state in life? How do I embrace the pain that goes along with this time? It certainly doesn't feel good, and I am often relying on my ever so patient and loving husband to do things for me. (I can't tie my shoes anymore-its actually pretty funny) But as I was up at 3 am the other night, it hit me really hard. I was staring at the crucifix above our door, and I saw nothing but agony, pain, and suffering.....the cross of Christ that he embraced so that there could be a Resurrection-an eternal happiness for each of us. He literally broke his body so that we may have life and joy. THIS is what I am called to do...OWNING my vocation-giving up myself so that I can bring life into the world. God created us women to love and serve. This is what makes us happy- whether it be Rose loving her son, Molly loving her students, Therese serving the poor across the oceans, etc! etc! etc! You have each a different call in life, but I guaruntee it involves service and love-what our female hearts were made for. It's in embracing and owning our vocation that we find the fulfillment that so many people go to extremes to find. I think of you all often and gain so much strength from your examples. Keep rockin' it. Much love~

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

April Fools

Although I am not a big fan of the fools doing stupid pranks today... I am a fan of the geniuses with well-thought-out clever ones.

A co-worker of mine, Tania, made her Facebook status "Laid off". I about had a heart attack. This was her idea of a good prank because her only other ideas were:

1-fake being pregnant with twins, (which she decided was a jinx)
or 2-winning the lotto (just depressing but not alarming or believable)

Tania, Tania, Tania... in this economic climate? really? Although my brain was saying, "it is April Fool's, obvi", my heart argued, "what if I get laid off? how will I live? how will I pay my bills? beat beat beat ba-beat beat". Next time you need to come up with something, come talk to me and we will do it right.
On a day like today, think Jim. Jim Halpert. King of the Prank. Ruler of the Fools. Prankster Extrordonairre. In my memory... he put Dwight's desk in the bathroom and called him there, messed with his computer on multiple occasions, got Dwight to hit himself with his own phone... and of course the stapler in jello. Gotta love it.

I don't know if I will pull anything this year. Its not worth doing unless I can do it right. As of now I have no ideas really. I'm so out of it this week. I am so not owning it :-/ and neither is my emoticon. So, I better do an awesome prank to get out of my funkithon. HELP I need ideas!

------------------------time out.------------------------
ok i'm back with some thoughts, and I should add that I feel motivated and energized...

My coworker DG and I have it all planned out now. We are going to work together. One of us will distract Tania while the other flips her mouse buttons -clicking the left will be like right click, and vice versa. We will also reset Tania's internet homepage to something bizzarre and embarrassing... and change her wallpaper to a tiled picture of our boss.
Last but not least, we are leaving a post-it for a few coworkers that says "See me ASAP" and sign our boss' name!

This is the best way I can Own it today at work! fun fun fun!