Friday, April 30, 2010

Owning my Anxieties!!

Just thought I'd share since I emailed this to a couple people today :)

This week I did something scary....I talked to the senior girls at the Highlands School---where I went from 6-12 grade! I told them my story about the break in (briefly, no need to scare them to the point of not sleeping!!!) but centered the talk more around being safe at college, etc. I think it went REALLY well though I was terrified! My sister Virginia came with me and her baby Moses so that helped. I had spoken to the girls about careers and what to major in at college about a month or two before the break in, so this was kind of like a follow up…we didn’t talk about the most important thing-safety! Being aware! Being around alcohol and parties etc! Not being in the safe haven where you trust everyone! I told them about making good friends, surrounding yourself with people you can trust, and not just trusting anyone. Anyways, things are going REALLY well, and I think I’d like to do more talks like that…hopefully I’ll be less sweaty/nervous next time ;)
photo by my cousin @ Julie Wilhite Photography

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Nice & Easy

 I am a longtime fan of Frank.. Frank Sinatra of course.. There is nothing like the feeling of strolling down a Manhattan street on a beautiful day - listening to a Fave Sinatra song on my iPod. Sometimes I pretend it is the soundtrack to my personal movie (on a great day). But enough about me.

This song is SO what I needed to hear this AM. In a world of GO GO GO.. it is nice to have a friendly reminder from Frank to slow it down once in a while.. and Take it Nice & Easy...

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Song of the Day!

Can't Get this Song OUT of My Head today....

How cute is this lil teen? - this version is a lil more Techno-ish, but it certainly makes me wanna sing in front of my around my room..use a hair brush as a microphone..u know.. just saying.. enjoy

Thursday, April 15, 2010

No Sex Please, I'm Neal McDonough...

 I found this article to be Quite interesante & had to share it with you...obvi
Neal McDonough is a marvelous actor who elevates every role he plays, whether it's in Band of Brothers or Desperate Housewives. So when he was suddenly replaced with David James Elliott 3 days into the filming on ABC's new series Scoundrels earlier this week, there had to be a story behind the story. The move was officially explained as a casting change. But, in fact, McDonough was sacked because of his refusal to do some heated love scenes with babelicious star (and Botox pitchwoman) Virginia Madsen. The reason? He's a family man and a Catholic, and he's always made it clear that he won't do sex scenes. And ABC knew that. Because he also didn't get into action with Nicolette Sheridan on the network's Desperate Housewives when he played her psycho husband during Season 5. And he also didn't do love scenes with his on-air girlfriend in his previous series, NBC's Boomtown, or that network's Medical Investigation. "It has cost him jobs, but the man is sticking to his principles," a source explained to me. You can't help but admire McDonough for sticking to his beliefs, even if he's poised to lose as much as $1 million in paydays for Scoundrels, which is based on the New Zealand series Outrageous Fortune centering on the matriarch (Madsen) of a family of criminals who decides it's time for her brood to go straight after her husband (McDonough, now Elliott) is sentenced to a long prison term. ("I thought these things only happened to women in LA!," a source mused.) - Article By Nikki Finke (No Sex Please, I'm Neal McDonough...

read&react por favor

...I'm just saying - whoa - way to Own it Nealster! Way to stand firm to your convictions. love it... love it~! What a Catch u r!!

Alas..sigh....oh ABC - how disappointing - yet totally status quo... shame shame.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I need a Mani-Pedi Like it 's nobody's Business!!

Is it Just me..or does spending money you can't afford - to have someone esle paint your toes & nails - just make things better!?

Ever since I have been on this SUPER savings budget for our wedding (no there is no date).. I have had to SERIOUSLY cut back.. ok cut OUT my spa fixes! No more manicures on the regular - no more trips to the local cheap nail place for a $20 mani/pedi & a LONG massage to make all my stresses disappear. Nope. 

Lately I have painted my own nails - and not shown my toes to anyone. Lately I have endured neck aches, back pain & normal stress that is usually cured by these frequent trips to my favorite nail spa.  The number of massages I was getting had already decreased greatly after my favorite Masseuse, Tom, went back to Thailand... oh Tom.. oh the memories....he used to charge $10 for a "10 minute" more like 20 minute Massage of a LIFETIME.... but since he has left the country - those days are over.  And now with the money so tight, my days of Mani/Pedis are over too.... sigh......UNTIL....... wait for it......Tomorrow NIGHT!!!!!!!

Yes that's right! This weekend I am going to FL for my friends Wedding!! And HELLO there is no way I can show up in black tie attire, wearing new/fabulous open toe shoes(recently purchased from Bandolino's) without being polished! Wouldn't you agree??!?!?

Therefore I am reaching into my wallet & dishing out the well spent $20 (plus tip of course).... and treating myself to some relaxation & Polished nails!!! Any local gals are welcome to join.  You know a spa experience just isn't the same without serious gabbing...(see below)..

Let's go maniacally obsess about our lives in a soothing environment

oh & in case you were wondering how I afforded the new shoes..thank u for asking.  Well my BFF aka my sister Maria (who is on a serious mission to revamp my shoe collection pile of old shoes)..gave me new shoes from Bandolino's for Christmas, which didn't quite fit - so i got to (finally) exchange them for a HOT new pair of shoes for this upcoming wedding season! Thanks Again Uptown Girl... for trying to make over this upper-eastsider's feet - one fabulous shoe at a time.

Yay for ME!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Quotes help me through..

I am not a patient person. I want what I want - when I want it. period. When I have to wait for something - or when I realize that MY plan is the THE plan.. I often get anxious or frustrated.  I am learning how to accept things - to be patient - and to make the most of the extra time I have...but sometimes I just NEED a quote....
“Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.”

“Patience and fortitude conquer all things”

“Faith is not simply a patience that passively suffers until the storm is past. Rather, it is a spirit that bears things - with resignations, yes, but above all, with blazing, serene hope.”

“The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen.”  

“The secret of patience is doing something else in the meanwhile” 

  "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

1 Year Anniversary

Br. Paul threw an "Irish Party" in the hospital- I stopped him from dying my IV bag Green!

It got a little rowdy! :)

Br. Damiano!! (he gave me his hat and glasses for the pic! Guess I wasn't looking my best! )

World Class Patient :)


My brothers- being my brothers!

Seeing my Dad!

Today is the one year anniversary of having my appendix out! Now that doesn’t seem like the noteworthy anniversary- but for me it was a life-changing experience! On Monday April 6th 2009 I was living in Comayagua, Honduras. The day happened to be Monday of Holy Week, and started with a 4 hour trip up to the mountains to drop a team off for the Semana Santa mission. 2 hours into the trip I began to vomit uncontrollably and started having this pain that felt like a really bad flu, it began to worsen as the hours passed. I was determined to make it to drop off the team; it is not easy getting 12 people up to the mountains! But as I got worse and worse Carol, the head of the mission in Honduras decided I needed to get to a doctor, and found a way to get the team the rest of the way up(I think they rode a chicken bus  ), and we began our descent home. Unpaved roads, a bumpy truck, and vomiting- I’ll leave it at that! MJ and Carol cared for me and loved me as we stopped every 20 minutes on the side of the road.

After a very eventful trip to a hole in the wall clinic- a few shots- and a Doctor who was “a bit shady” to say the least, we finally made it back to Comayagua. I went for all different tests and came to the hospital to see Dr. Eleana, where after reading the results told me that she had called the surgeon because she thought it might be appendicitis! I had never had an IV before let alone surgery! I have assisted in OR’s in Honduras- and there is no comparison between them and the US standard of care. I sat there and realized what she had just said, and I felt fear like I never have before. I lay on the examining table as the Dr’s spoke- and could hardly believe that I was going to have surgery in Honduras! I started to Freak Out to say the least! Dr. Eleana who is a dear friend told me that she would sit with me through the whole surgery but that I needed to calm down- she brought me into her office and as I walked in the door sitting there IN A CLINIC- IN HONDURAS were my Dad, Greg, and Dave!

I BURST into tears! They had been planning to surprise me for a few months, and happened to arrive the day I got Appendicitis! To be comforted by “my boys” the three most important men in my life was unbelievable…literally. All of a sudden the thought of going through surgery in a third world country was still scary but BEARABLE- I was not alone! If you know my brothers and my Dad- They kept it real…squeezing my IV bag so it would “go in faster”, and just being them! My Dad was with me before surgery (Greg and Dave were killing a lamb with the Friars for Holy Thursday dinner!) and the last thing the Doctor said to my Dad was “25 minutes and we’ll have her out! It’s a really short surgery!” Well, a little over 2+ hours later they wheeled me into the recovery room. As it turned out my appendix had ruptured. He quickly opened me old fashioned style (a nice 4 in. scar to accompany the other 1in. one he had made first!). When I woke up he asked me why I had to be so complicated! So a one day hospital stay turned into 4.

During those 4 days I experienced Semana Santa in a new way. There weren’t pain meds like we have at home, and it was a really hard week. I remember waking at 3am the night after surgery not realizing I had been crying until Dr. Wilmer- an incredible man-father-and Doctor was wiping the tears from my face. So many moments of thinking I just couldn’t do it…feeling so helpless on top of the pain. But looking back I know one thing. I was able to experience a small portion of the pain that so many of my patient’s in Honduras experience daily. The uncertainly- lack of medicine- magnitude of the number sick and small numbers of doctor’s who will see them. I understand some portion of that. I am able to love them and serve them better because I KNOW them. A year later looking back the raw pain and the fear have blurred but what stands so vibrant is the reality that I was not in control, and had no control over what happened that week. But I do know that somehow while God was trying to find a cure for Cancer and dealing with World Peace He knew that I was in Comayagua, Honduras. He knew that I was so afraid and I needed my Dad and brothers- and He orchestrated the whole thing! I know LOVE.

Every time I see this scar I not only remember the fear and pain, but more so the faithfulness of God. 2 weeks after surgery the incision became infected, and they were deciding whether to open me up again, but I should not have been surprised when a wound care specialist “happened” to be on a mission in Honduras that week- and Christine Songy gave me the best of care! As I went for my last visit with the surgeon he commented to me how fortunate I was, how many other directions this could have taken. I can only thank God- a year later- for showing me the fragility of my life. I was given a gift, and now I’m trying my best to live it OUT LOUD! Nothing held back! So on this One year anniversary I want to say thank-you!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Uptown Girl has Raw Ownage

I just want to give a lil SHOUT OUT to my sister/our fellow Own it Gal: Maria Aka: Uptown Girl

Serio - Do u follow her Blog?? Did you read her Post on Friday? Go HERE.

She is Amazing.  She not only talks the TALK - But she Runs The RUN!
She inspires me in So many ways... And I am SO proud of her for running the 10K on Saturday.

Maria loves to set goals & challenge herself.  Starting with her bday or new years, she likes to set new goals for the coming year & work towards something great. One of her BIG goals for this year was to run a 10K..and yowza - it is only April!  Talk about follow through.

Maria has shown - by example- over and over that we can DO anything we set our minds to. 

We can CHANGE who we are - we CAN face our fears...and no Matter what the hurdle is in front of us - we CAN overcome anything & own it. 

In the past couple of years... This Uptown Girl has relentlessly battled her insecurities -  She has overcome a lot of & major heart breaks - She has turned against her self doubt & Major people pleasing tendencies - and because of her Courage & Ferocity - She has Become this INCREDIBLE - Sassy- Authentic- Gorgeous - Athletic - Strong - Hilarious - Determined - And Inspirational Woman.  

This is what I call RAW Ownage!

I am So Proud to be her Sister & her Bestie